Identity Crisis

For months now there has been this waging war inside my head. Well, if we’re going to be honest, it’s been more like years. Thoughts of inadequacy flood my mind constantly. I hear words that seem to be at a volume screaming at me with a max intensity. “You are not worthy.” “You are not, nor will you ever be enough.” “You’re too broken.” And those are just a few. They are so loud sometimes that I often look around convinced others can hear them too. These phrases run through my head at warped speed and all of it swirls around the understanding of me being void of something.

To an extent, it’s true. I am void of something. I’m void of the understanding of who I truly am in Christ. I’ve allowed Satan to completely skew my idea of who the Lord created and I’ve focused on and believed the lies he’s fed me. Daily I struggle with this. Thankfully, I have a friend who constantly encourages me to battle those lies as opposed to being defeated in them. Boy am I grateful for that. You see, when we become defeated in them, we are agreeing to the thought of Satan being victorious eliminating the need for Christ to set us free. WRONG!

The only way to succeed in this world is to remember that God is “I AM.” He is everything we are not. Any void that I may have should be filled with Him. It is then and only then that I can begin to walk into the full calling He has for my life. I’ve been so focused on the lies that the truths seemed to have escaped my mind. Why is it so much easier to get stuck on the negative?

I found this quote while I was going through my World Race journals and it seemed fitting. “The more we embrace truths from Scripture about who we are in Christ, the more stable, grateful, and fully assured we will be in this broken world.”

If that doesn’t make you say AMEN…

The world is full of brokenness. There are broken people everywhere. I am broken. But, I have a Savior who took my place on a dark, dark day so that I could have life everlasting. My wounds have been healed and my sins forgiven. As hard as it is sometimes to believe those truths especially knowing my life behind the scenes, I think it’s even harder to know that when I look down on myself, I’m looking down on all that the Lord has done.

It's so important to walk tall knowing that He has made you in His own image out of nothing but dust. If He can make beautiful things out of dust, He can make beautiful things out of brokenness and the things which appear “void” in our lives. He is everything. He is I AM.